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12.23.2003

私は江戸です。 米国にすんでいます。 どうぞ よろしく。

12.19.2003

Sachi: "Oh my god there's a zuchini on the couch...did Angela sleep on the couch?"

12.16.2003

Edcool1: SwtstBabyGirl: back
SwtstBabyGirl: craving a popsicle
Edcool1: i got one in my pants
SwtstBabyGirl: lol
Edcool1: thats not charming?
Edcool1: lol
koolaidehurts: No.
koolaidehurts: No it is not.

12.12.2003


No more english! least till next january...

12.11.2003


武士道
トーム クルズ

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Oh yeah they were all over me. Couldn't keep their hands off. Harry is a biter. Draco loves the cock.
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12.10.2003

When it rains it pours. (Work in Progress)
My family and I have always been imposters, always seeming to be in a class we really did not belong to. I grew up in a part of town usually only very rich people can afford, while we paid probably half as much as everyone else in our neighborhood. Even that rent was too high for us; we were constantly late in our rent checks. My mother and father have had substance abuse problems since before I was born, and continue to have them to this day. I can remember my father taking me with him as a young boy to crack houses in Oakland. I did not know what a crack house was, but I remember it always being called that by my mother. My father would go in the house, and I would usually wait outside hanging out with people who lived there, アイス ポプシクル を 食べるのいました (eating ice popsicles). My father’s addiction has taught me a lot about life, and it has caused me to see the world in different ways. Experiences like these caused me to relate to the character Terry Jackson in William Finnegan’s Cold New World. Terry is from Black New Haven, Connecticut, a place not entirely different from Oakland, California. If Terry and I had been from the same area and had been the same age, he would have probably been one of the kids I hung out with in that crack house.
Terry was an average boy growing up in New Haven: His father was not around and his mother was on drugs. Like most children, school did not hold his attention. The fast money and glamour of the drug trade caught his eye, and like so many other young black men, he became a drug dealer. Selling cocaine to people like my father was one of the few things black people could do to make money in this society. Girls would not have anything to do with you if you did not have money — if you were not a drug dealer. All the legitimate jobs a young man without a high school education to get paid next to nothing. Would you want to have the kind of money where you could afford to loose a Rolex watch, or crash several cars and still be able buy more? Many of Terry’s peers had that kind of money, as did Terry for several years. Legal problems caused him to loose his wealth, but he would continue the illegitimate practice if he could.
Terry’s family consisted of his mother, ‘Anjelica’, and half brother, ‘Buddy.’ Buddy was your average young boy, as average as you can expect. Anjelica was the drug addict of the family, and truly fit the part. Because of this, it was hard for her to keep jobs, and when she did have a job she would spend all of her money on drugs. Terry’s father is hardly ever mentioned. Perhaps the events in Terry’s life would not be so dismal if he had had a more traditional family with a mother and father who paid attention. His family did not encourage him to become something greater than what was expected of him.
Terry’s family was dysfunctional and sporadic. For many years he did not live with his mother, and never saw his father. Sometimes he lived with his grandmother, other times with his friends, other times in jail. Finnegan makes note of the fact that traditional families are at a decline, “The alarming eversion of the normal American expectation of generational progress was the grim backdrop…for the months I spent with…Terry Jackson” (Finnegan 4). American’s are becoming more isolated, family values meaning less and less, society no longer being a part of everyone’s life. The TV, the automobile, the government: contributors to turning our social structure inside out. The eversion of expectation prevented Terry from caring enough to hold a steady job. It allowed him to accept the low maintenance, high risk job of selling rocks to rich white people and people like his mother, while rejecting the notion that he could hold a legitimate job.
Perhaps Terry was just one of the bad ones, always trying to stay out of trouble but always ending back in the game. Even if he was, there is something wrong with our society that allows Terry, and others like Terry, to go through life with no encouragement and no opportunities. There is something wrong when so many are left with no options, no chances to advance in life, no chance to catch up with the wealthier. The only way for a young black man to become an imposter and pretend to be rich is to become a drug dealer. Finnegan touches on this notion:
I cant think of a more nuanced expression, for instance, of the “double
truth,” as Benjamin DeMott calls it, “that within our borders an opportunity
society and a caste society coexist” than Terry Jackson’s decision to “go
Yale” in the New Haven black community’s spring-cleaning parade, which
passes through the Yale University Campus. Terry was a fifteen-year-old
droput and street cocaine dealer at the time, and he used his drug earnings
to outfit himself for the parade in Yale sweatpants, a blue Yale sweatshirt,
and a Yale baseball cap. The costume was a hit with the crowd. “It was
dope,” Terry said afterward. Indelibly, I thought (Finnegan XV).
These young men know that they will never move to the rich part of town, never will own stocks, never run for office, never be the president, never be a big movie star or a famous athlete. They know this, but they will go to great lengths doing illegal things to have a taste of what it is like to be a rich man.No matter how much money they make, they will never be rich.
“For what it’s worth, I blame the government” (Finnegan 347). The government has done next to nothing to stop the crime while improving standards of living for people in communities like New Haven. It is a lose-lose situation, the government has to pay to remove the criminals from the street and incarcerate them, and society looses because members of it are locked up and harmed for the rest of their lives. Now that they have criminal records they cannot go to college, they cannot get a well paying job, cannot work in a community. Their needed input into society is removed by reducing their income, replaced with minimum wage, which is not even enough to pay the rent in most places in America, let alone give money back to community. Schools then are hit by the economics of it, which causes kids to look for alternatives to sitting in class, starting the cycle over again.
Terry Jackson does not seem like the type of character to teach people anything. The stories of his life are common, especially today, and the trials he goes through are not that bad compared with other people with similar professions. Many children grow up without male role models, many children become drug dealers; the story of Terry gives you a sense of “been there done that.” Terry makes so many mistakes during the course of the narrative that it is a wonder he is not locked away for good. After he moved away from New Haven to escape the life he was living, he moved to a place where chances are he will get right back in the game, as usual. It is not unlike my dad, telling my mother and me that he is going to stop drinking, or that he is off crack, or that the cigarette in his mouth is the “last one.” It never is, he never is. The imposter in us wants to believe dad can turn around, the imposter in him thinks he does not have a problem. It is safe to say that he will be back at the crack house next Friday, buying another rock.

I still love my dad a lot.

アイス ポプシクル を 食べます

12.08.2003

Edcool1: did u see the last samurai?
OaKumAi: OH YEAH
OaKumAi: wait
OaKumAi: what did you think of it?
OaKumAi: really?
OaKumAi: i thought it was awesome
OaKumAi: oh yeah
OaKumAi: its an epic
OaKumAi: of course it should be somewhat
OaKumAi: yeah i was caught up in the romantic epicness of it all to really see it in any kind of bad light
OaKumAi: so its pretty much my favorite movie of all time as of right now
OaKumAi: haha
OaKumAi: i see i see
OaKumAi: but you gotta admit
OaKumAi: that scene where he kicked those four guys' arses
OaKumAi: in the street
OaKumAi: that was pretty cool
OaKumAi: haha yeah i know what you mean
OaKumAi: in the beginning?
OaKumAi: the cg of the cities?
OaKumAi: downtown SF of the 19th century and stuff?
OaKumAi: ok
OaKumAi: yeah
OaKumAi: yes yes
OaKumAi: im glad someone else noticed
OaKumAi: i'd actually pay to watch that movie again
OaKumAi: not full price....matinee price
OaKumAi: naw
OaKumAi: what is it?
OaKumAi: forreals?
OaKumAi: OH RIGHT
OaKumAi: thats right
OaKumAi: mel gibson ... and uhh
OaKumAi: yeah religion
OaKumAi: i think i remember hearing something about that awhile back
OaKumAi: WtF!
OaKumAi: One thousand Japanese martial arts experts were on the payroll, and it shows.
OaKumAi: jeez
OaKumAi: everyone is pretty much agreed that Watanabe was awesome
OaKumAi: LMFAO!
OaKumAi: naw at one point he was kinda Michael Jackson ish with his one white glove
OaKumAi: lol
OaKumAi: did you have Sammy get you guys in for free?
OaKumAi: LoL i dont think he couldve, its a premiere weekend
OaKumAi: yah
OaKumAi: security was damn tight when we went
OaKumAi: lol
OaKumAi: i think Ken Watanabe might win best supporting actor
OaKumAi: right well
OaKumAi: i think i might go watch it again this weekend
OaKumAi: well anyhows
OaKumAi: i really needa take a piss
OaKumAi: and imma go watch the new battlestar galactica
OaKumAi: so i will ttyl
OaKumAi: cya!
OaKumAi signed off at 8:32:00 PM.

12.06.2003

I want someone to google bomb me... what should I have them do?

12.05.2003

Some of this shit be hella funny yo.
Time for more google fun.

Type in "Weapons of mass destruction" then click the "i'm feelin' lucky" button.
Type in "French Military Victories" then click the "I'm feelin lucky" button.

12.02.2003

OaKumAi: you wanna see something kinda funny?
OaKumAi: go to www.google.com
Edcool1: ok
OaKumAi: type in "miserable failure"
OaKumAi: then hit "im feeling lucky" button
Edcool1: lol
Edcool1: holy shit
OaKumAi: thats hillarious

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